My journey into the fascinating world of kink has been quite the adventure, and it all began during a particularly challenging and tumultuous chapter in my life—when my marriage was crumbling and failing to meet my emotional needs. At that time, I felt as though I was wandering aimlessly through a complex labyrinth, desperately searching for an exit or a way to reclaim my sense of self. Then, quite unexpectedly and serendipitously, I stumbled upon a door labeled “Kink.” Naturally, my curiosity was piqued immediately, and I thought to myself, “Well, this seems fascinating and intriguing, why not? I can use this as ‘research’ for my continued professional development!” Little did I know that stepping through that door would lead me to a transformative and enriching realm of deep self-exploration and rediscovery that would ultimately change my life in profound ways.

As a first-generation Generation X Colombiana, my upbringing was steeped in rich cultural traditions and values that often emphasized modesty, respect, and a strong adherence to familial expectations. It felt as if I had been handed an unwritten script that dictated I should play the role of the dutiful firstborn daughter, a devoted spouse, and a nurturing mother, with little room for deviation or personal expression from those prescribed roles. However, as the foundation of my marriage began to crumble—triggered by the painful discovery that my ex-husband was infertile, followed by infidelity, an absence of children, and ultimately, a divorce—I found myself yearning for the freedom to break away from that restrictive script and explore the depths of my identity beyond societal norms. This is where kink entered my life—a vibrant world that champions authenticity, consent, and personal empowerment. It became an essential avenue for me to reclaim my own narrative and redefine what it truly means to be a Latin@ on my own terms, embracing the complexities of my identity with newfound strength and clarity.

When it comes to family values, it’s essential to recognize that while these teachings instilled in me a sense of deep respect and nurturing for others, they often left little room for the kind of self-exploration that I was longing for, especially in the intriguing realm of kink. I can only imagine the wide-eyed and astonished reaction of my family if they were to discover the details of my escapades (stay tuned for my next memorie)—perhaps envision mi mama with a look of shock plastered across her face or starting to whirl into a dramatic fainting spell at the very thought. Yet, the true beauty of this personal journey has been the profound growth and self-acceptance I’ve experienced within myself. Kink has uniquely empowered me to embrace my deepest desires without shame, a concept that many Latin@s, including myself, often find challenging due to the weight of cultural expectations that can sometimes feel overwhelming.

While I was actively working as a sexual health educator and serving as an adjunct instructor in both Public Health and Ethnic Studies, I had skillfully managed to camouflage my kink life, which has undoubtedly made conversations with my mother a bit more manageable and, in many ways, less complicated. She has come to terms with my current professional pursuits as an Intimacy, Sex & Relationship Coach; yet, there remains a sweet, albeit shy, hesitance when it comes to discussing the details of my personal life. Ideally, she would prefer that I stick to discussions about safer sex practices and educational topics rather than delve into my own adventures and experiences in the realm of intimacy. However, I like to believe that through my work, I am slowly but surely bridging the gap between our cultural expectations and my own reality, fostering a deeper understanding between us over time.

Kink has been an incredibly healing and transformative experience for me, allowing me to embrace my sexuality in ways I never thought possible or conceivable. It has taught me that being unapologetically proud of my desires and interests does not diminish my cultural identity; if anything, it enriches and deepens it. I’m not merely a Latin@—I am a rich, multifaceted individual entitled to explore all dimensions of myself, and I resolutely refuse to be confined by outdated stereotypes or be placed in a box unless I choose to (jeje).

In essence, my diverse experiences within the kink community have taught me a truly valuable lesson about the significance of coloring outside the conventional lines. It’s about skillfully weaving together my rich cultural heritage with my deeply personal truths, creating a vibrant tapestry that beautifully embodies who I am as a whole person. So, here’s to the journey—both its messy challenges that can arise and its remarkable beautiful revelations—and to the many doors we courageously and fearlessly choose to open along the way!